
Kev
in always knew that he was different, even as a young child he knew. Girls just never
interested him for anyth
ing more than as playmates or casual friends. He liked girls all right, just not like the other guys did. He always knew that he was probably gay, but w
hen you?re young you don?t really underst
and all the feel
ings
and emotions that well up
inside of you as you grow to adulthood. Show
ing affection??? Now that was someth
ing that Kev
in couldn?t even compre
hend try
ing
in his small middle class mid western town. Besides, who would he show that affection to? For all he knew he was the only gay kid
in his whole school,
and no one suspected that he was queer,
and he wasn?t about to come out where he felt that even his parents wouldn?t underst
and. Feel
ing lonely was just someth
ing he was used to. He was certa
inly look
ing forward to his first year at State U., sure that at least there he would f
ind others
in the same boat as he.
The first weeks of college life were hectic to say the least, what with twenty five thous
and students
in one place was overwhelm
ing as well as exhilarat
ing! This was the first time Kev
in had ever been on his own for any length of time,
and he settled
into a comfortable rout
ine. He even began to make a few friends
in his classes as well as
in his dormitory. His roommate, Tom, was a n
ineteen year old freshman from Chicago, so many nights were spent tell
ing each other of life
in each other?s home town. Kev
in had to admit that Tom?s stories were much more
interest
ing than his own,
and Tom seemed to have plenty of tales to tell about the girls he had been with
and the wild sex they had together. Luckily for him, Tom didn?t really try to pry
into Kev
in?s personal background so Kev
in didn?t even have to lie about exploits with the opposite sex!